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little bits of nastiness

it's so hard sometimes
finding the line between believing in fate and believing in nothing
i don't believe in fate
but it's hard not wishing that's the answer and going with the current at times
i just know that it pleases me to think things work out for a reason
but still believe in free will
and not really worry about the contradictions between them
but it's the struggles
not being able to commit to one or the other
that crushes and confuses the human spirit
i don't believe in fate
or heaven
but i wish i did in both you know
i just believe in me
that's the thing i guess
when one stops believing in oneself
that's when one dies
but the thing is
people can stop believing in themselves
and can cling onto a variety of things
like religion, some elite club, family, drugs, whatever
and that can be enough to hold on

posted by fillshe @ 10:44 PM