curbdrop out of grace

a fairytale ending

last time i went there was the last time i cared,
that's a lie,
not the first,
not the last,
not the worst,
but it matters,
oh how it matters.
i say i don't care but we both know it's untrue,
so who am i fooling if it's not me and not you,
am i trying to prove something,
trying to justify,
what i've realized,
but can't give up.
so i lie,
i feign,
while i collapse,
inside,
with pain,
that i create,
from not being able,
to just walk away.
it's so stupid,
self torture,
suicide,
silly game,
stubborness,
idealized.
what i want,
is what was taught,
through lies on the screen,
that only seem to bring,
disgust in the fin,
eternal skin scratching,
from what will not come,
a fairytale ending.

posted by fillshe @ 1:42 PM