curbdrop out of grace

"no, you don't get to tell me what to do ever again"

i want to remind myself to watch "american beauty" at least once a month. i wasn't sure until watching the movie tonite again, but it is definitely one of my favorites. the movie is a reminder.

i never want to grow up. when i say that, i mean, of course i want to grow old and such and have responsibilities and a family and all that mumble bull shit bull crap. but i mean, when you're a kid, the dumbest things, simplest things make you happy. and it's pure. and of course you cannot be like that forever, but most people forget. i guess most people need drugs and alcohol to help remind, temporarily.

deep shit from a dip shit.

i semi-learned how to post pics on this damn blog today. i really don't know how. i had to stumble through the process twice. oh well.

there's this great "the sebadoh" song that appears on track one of their cd "the freed weed". i think the song is called "temporary dream" only because he sings a line about it throughout the song. the song really blows my mind. it's that simple and that good.

most girls are boring, which means i don't like most girls. in fact i'm super picky. so it seems i like wierd girls because wierd girls have wierd things to talk about that normal girls don't have.

for example:
a normal girl: "today i ate a peach."
a wierd girl: "today i figured out my cat is trying to commit suicide by eating too much avacado dip."

see the difference?
the strangest thing is that the "prettiest" girls never had to do a thing besides look pretty so they never do anything interesting except figure out new ways to lose weight. one finger, two fingers, or three today?

but being human, one can only fuck for so long. i guess it's like, maybe if you can tolerate utter boredom for the sake of a fuck it's ok to go for the normal girls. i think this is the way for most people.

but me, i think too much and therefore, require talking about things. and i would prefer not having to talk to a wall. i want to know where the damn cat got the avacado dip.

and wierd girls can be absolutely stunning. i know. i've met some. but unfortunately, most tend to also have some emotional baggage. or if a girl is that cool, usually she's already taken by some lucky dude.

in american beauty, the jane character has always been the girl i wanted. the type i wanted to make love to. the angellica girl has always been the girl i wanted to jerk off to.

posted by fillshe @ 9:58 PM