curbdrop out of grace

another story and another laugh that's left

i took a run outside just now. it was hard because i've been smoking a lot lately and also it was windier than a ponderosa men's bathroom, windtunnel style.

it was suffocating.

when i was running, i wanted to stop and just vomit. well that's really an exageration. i wanted to do that 20 minutes into the run. i'm beginning to train for our glorious return to catalpa fields, for spring session outdoor soccer with the detroit social club. yes we are two-time defending champs. so i think i need to quit/cut-back/pretend in self-denial that i'm cutting back smoking cigs. and other things.

oh, i just took a swig of sunny d, smooth cali style. it was so good. i haven't had any sunny d since college so there's been a two year emptiness in the pit of my stomach. ah justice at last. at least.

chris sims once told me (paraphrased), "any half-wit can play the guitar and say they know how to play, but it's completely different when you're actually playing in a band." one of curbdrop's drummers jimmy said it'd be easy for us to find gigs. we just need like 8 songs though. i think we've got 3 pretty doable songs:

1. the paul song
2. path to the lake
3. state of love and trust (cover)

we could also do the following pretty covers pretty easily if all of us learn the full songs and actually practice

4. yellow ledbetter (just need to have a second guitarist, probably joe)
5. creep (billy needs to learn some of the words and we need (?) a second guitarist perhaps)... oh also it's the radiohead version
6. cigarettes and alcohol (billy needs to learn all words as i suck at singing)
7. say it ain't so (i need to learn the bridge of the song... sirc knows all of it including solos).
8. tv movie (i already know how to play and can sing both parts, although i sing terribly. i think the song is meant for a single person to do or it's better for a single person to do at least. don't know how to incorporate that song into our set).
9. - 20. we have so many other songs just not at all complete. damn you billy.

sorry billy.

missy was telling me she thinks ____ is pretty. i told her, i disagree, because her personality sucks so bad, it makes her completely unattractive. i'm almost repulsed by her. and so i know everyone's heard before that when you're attracted to someone's personality, they really appear to be physically more attractive as well. i think it's so true and so obvious. who cares about pure physical attraction anyway, that's what Maxim and Playboy are for.

the other nite when missy was over, she told me she liked my hair even though it was fro'ing out and such as i did not apply any hair products to tame the beast. i was pleasantly suprised by her comment. because first, that's how my hair natually will look the morning after while i'm calling her a cab home (JUST JOSHING). but i just don't think most people would like my hair without products as it's so thick and all over. most girls like short clean cut hair. i don't apease most girls. i don't like most girls.

it's like billy's saying/thought/belief that i often paraphrase and hold dearly in my heart. billy said, "i don't like to describe the kind of girls i like in a traditional sense. like i don't like 'only blondes' or 'girls with blue eyes'. i describe the kind of girl i like based on little things, like i like 'a girl who likes stevie nicks' or 'a girl who is wearing a pearl jam shirt'."

get it? well i like/need a girl who can tollerate my long, thick, often unkept hair.

and last nite, a couple girls said they liked my hair that way. but it was just jane and some other fools that don't really matter as i'm not at all interested in filling them with half-asian babies. but i still liked it when jane said she likes my hair that way, although she might have only said it because she likes it when i amuse her and my hair was ooc (out of control) and f (fro'ing).

(fdl) the mayor and the seizure pills, by paloalto. i forgot what my symbol for free download is meaning only download if you can get it for free or else ask me to send to you. but it's going to be (fdl) from now on.

posted by fillshe @ 1:03 PM