curbdrop out of grace: it's inevitable it's a soul destroyed

Monday, January 17, 2005

it's inevitable it's a soul destroyed

so an old friend of mine is fading me out. not just me though, but everyone she used to be friends with. now i'm struggling to understand what it's like as i have always been the one to instigate ending a relationship that is not working out.

when i think about it more (which of course you all know i have way too much as is), i will admit that she was never that great friends with me. even at our friendship peak. but this girl is a sweetheart. always has been and always will be. but we just never have had much in common.

her deal now is that we're (my friends and i) not giving her enough out of our various relationships. i know she's right, but what is she really giving to me anyway? i almost think i've always kept her around and want to still because she is terribly nice and kind hearted. but at the end of the day, i guess that doesn't even matter.

so i guess i'm not going to fight it anymore as it seems inevitable. it's a soul destroyed.

i'm exhausted. goodnite moon goodnite starts goodnite goodnite whore whever you are.