curbdrop out of grace

last call sick of it all

i want to write splended sad songs in the likes of elliott smith. but i don't ever want to be that sad (again). so i'm in a predicament where i listen to the best and aspire but am not willing to fly that close to the sun.

i slept at chamber's house again last nite, in my usual spot on the long couch. this morning when i woke up i thought, you know i'm like that girl in pulp fiction that is just always chilling at the drug dealer's house. i just sort of hang around day and nite all the time, not really doing much but sort of living in this pseudo home.

i told chambers and jb that i need a little closet to house my stuff, as i'm there all the time anyway.

and last nite, coming back from memphis smoke i asked jane to play with my hair, as i find it incredibly orgasmic. she did and i fell asleep. when i woke, everyone was gone.

i know part of this is drinking some alcohol which makes me SHEEPY (hahaha mayer you fuck) but also part of this situation, where i seem to keep falling asleep around 1-2am on weekend nites when people are still around and up, has to do with the fact i have zero caffiene (sp?) intake on the weekends. so maybe i should look into that? or else maybe i should just let my body win and fall asleep as it naturally does?

and we're going to chicago next weekend... goldbond and myself. and i called mel to tell her i'd be in town (i had meant to call her for a few weeks now about the matter, in order to RSVP). well she called me back while we were at memphis and she was so excited that i was coming, saying she'd shadow me the entire weekend. now, i was already really looking forward to the weekend, but now i'm completely psyched. i am much more excited to go to chicago than i am to go to vegas, although i'm sure both trips will be fun as throwing vaccuums off of roofs.

and you know, i typically do not get excited for anything. i do look forward to a lot of things, but almost never am full blown excited and wet with anticipation. but i am for this next weekend. i cannot wait.

my mom so baby's my brother. he's sleeping and my dad wants to wake his ass up because it's past noon and because it's lunch time and we want to have some sort of family time together. but my mom won't allow, saying that if he wants to sleep, let him sleep because he's a little bitch.

i added the little bitch part.

i might get a new phone today.

posted by fillshe @ 12:08 PM