curbdrop out of grace: i've been misunderstood until it all came to me

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

i've been misunderstood until it all came to me

i remembered this evening, i have an old email account that i no longer use because the old address sucks and i was getting all this shite mail. i went into it and cleared out all the junk mail that had been accumulating forever. and the aftermath brought forward a number of old emails from 3 years ago. many of the emails are from when i was an intern. it was during this very very odd summer that was both golden and blue.

and after the summer sun set, just as the new school year began, the long and windy road that lay before no longer seemed so frightening.

i only skimmed some of the emails. i'll look at them again, in a later date. it's nice knowing they are there. but a lot of stuff should just be kept as is. i'll look again sometime when i am down, or really bored, or really happy, or alone, or with someone special, or something. i don't care. i know they're there. and right now, i'm here.

my hair is long enough in many strands pulled naturally together that i need to tuck them behind my year, like a nervous girl.

or like a guy to a girl when he's going in for the kiss. that's my personal favorite move to do as i get to touch her face and cup it oh so slightly as i brush past hair to the sensitive spot behind the ear.

i went to billy's and played guitar with him for about 30 minutes before going home to rest. i was planning on writing a song but i think i'll just make a new mixed cd instead. i'll write some other day. there is always motivation for guitar. there isn't always such motivation for making someone a cd.

i think i'm losing more of my hearing.

i vaccummed when came home for about 1 minute. i did clean up the important parts, all the little tiny dead bugs in the kitchen steps area and by the door. i am so great.

jane told me i looked good in my shirt today. she said the color really complimented me. i was wearing my longsleeve t-shirt from j.crew. the color, though, is baby gap gay blue. that color compliments me eh?