curbdrop out of grace

but then you know how much i really

couple of things. i completed my errands today which i am proud of as i really didn't feel like doing a thing today. and i've still had enough time to sit around and really do nothing.

i don't know why, i think it's the weather and the sickness and the more time i've had around computers lately that have gotten me to write poetry again. i hadn't really done much of it in a long time, maybe for like 8 months or so. i used to do it so regularly. in the past few days it seems i've written a number.

unfortunately, i find it so difficult to write happy poems, even if i am not in an unhappy state. most of the crap i wrote the last few days have been depressing shit. i'd say about 95% of the stuff i write is of that genre: depressing shit. i cannot help it. it's hard for me to write about happy things unless it's about some girl that i think is unbelievable (i did write one for someone the other day in that fashion). but i guess the thing is, i don't find THAT many people unbelievable. and i'm not likely to spend my time writing about guys. i don't care to. i'd rather go jam with billy than write a song about him. i'd rather be retarded with mayer and tell him how hot his sister is than compose a poem about why i think he's a good dancer.

hahaha.

so anyway, i'm stuck with writing sad songs despite my mood. again, just because i write it doesn't mean i feel that way at the exact moment that i even wrote it.

posted by fillshe @ 5:48 PM