curbdrop out of grace

sorry dude i'm a man

i was thinking about how i've only ever told two girls that i loved them but the first few times i said it to the second i didn't really mean it at first because i had meant to say it to a third, other girl. and so i didn't really mean it when i first told katie but she had already told me, which isn't any reason by any measure. but i told her for awhile, i didn't feel that way yet. then i remember one day i was napped in her arms and i woke up. and in half sleep, i told her. and she was so happy. and it had definitely slipped out because i didn't really, yet. and so then i had to continue for awhile even though it was a lie. (thankfully?) soon enough though, i did mean it. at least to the point that i didn't feel bad saying it.

i think this is the way most people after they've been in a relationship for some time, say it. they almost do it out of convienence or from habit.

anyway, i didn't mean it for a long time as the third really did a number.

posted by fillshe @ 12:10 AM