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"iwhen you love somebody it's hard to think about anything but to breathe."

for those who were actually keeping tabs, i got busy living today and had a nice nite playing basketball, bowling and drinking with good company.

by the way, how fun is it really to throw a 10-16 lb ball as hard as one can down a long thin lane?

sidenote, i use the lower end of a 10lb ball.

my arm is going to be sore tomorrow. i'm not sure how i'll be able to model with such strained arms.

i love this song by the fruitbats, called "when u love somebody" (ddl)/(fdl) = d.

it's sad that mitch wasn't as well known as he really was. because his death will no doubt increase his fame and popularity. rest assured my man.

the song "when u love somebody" has a great great line to it that is more or less repeated: "when you love somebody bite your tongue all you get is a mouthful of blood." and that's why i don't ever bite my tongue. and that's why no matter how much pain or pleasure it brings you when i say or do things that i say or do to/for you, i will keep doing until you kill me or banish me. is this VAGUE? (this is for you).

and here's the deal, no strings attached no vagueness. when it comes time for you to leave, i want to have made certain that i've created a stubborn memory and a stubborn reason for you to return to michigan. all i need is to do that and maybe i have half a chance in the long run.

here's my last thing. i remember asking you once, "ARE you attracted to ME?" and you were in a perplexed state and said, "yeah of course. how can you even question it?" and i was really happy... REALLY happy at the moment even though in that short term, it didn't change things. but it did for me. because i thought you were but wasn't really certain. and even going big picture beyond you, it really did a lot for me at that moment. because usually i attract garbage that is so common i don't know what to do but typically drop it at the curb. and for once, i attracted haley's comet, something so beautiful and so rare that only comes around in one's lifetime every 76 years or so. something that you stay up at nite for just to see for a brief moment. and it mattered so much back then and now.

posted by fillshe @ 11:48 PM