curbdrop out of grace

killian's on tap, tap tappa-roo

i've quit smoking many times successfully, for short periods of times: aka days.

here's the deal. i know they are bad. i know with every huff. that's not the part that bothers me. the part that bothers me is feeling like i'm addicted and have lost control. that's why i go through these trial periods of abstanance.

i took three different quizes lately asking various health related questions that go into a calculation of when my predicted age of death will be. all three said i'd die in my early 60's. that's really not so far away. i'm hoping by then, scientists will have invented a cure for unhappiness. oh and all those damn cancers.

who cares about the point of your story. most of the time, people talk with a point in mind. most people who talk shouldn't because they are stupid. anyway, the point isn't always the highlight. rather, it's one's journey to the point that is most interesting. i think at least.

i feel bad for fat kids because they always get picked last or fairly close to last in most sports, at least in elementary school. also one time i read that fatter people don't have more cells. there's just more space between the cells. that sounds like a theory made up by some lard who likes to eat pies*.

*both meat and fruit

fat kids are usually picked early in these activities:

1. human pyramids
2. tug-of-war(s)
3. ship sinking
4. volcano sacrificee
5. wet t-shirt contests

i'm talking to missy now. here is the convo, reasons why my friends are losers with girls:
1. we have very high standards
2. we don't do well in the bar scene (for various reasons)
3. we dont' know how to close the deal
4. we fall for our friends
5. we all look young
6. we are living in the troy area

there's a lot of explantion with this list. but some or the jist should be obvious.

i am an idiot. i've always been. i always will be. but this time around, i'm going to mingle with the mob verses standing alone, out of the crowd. i'll be an idiot just like everyone else. see me for details.

posted by fillshe @ 9:36 PM