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yesterday after work while walking to the parking garage down a street always infested by homeless folk, this one guy that i see daily seemed more estranged than normal. he asked for spare change, so i gave him a dollar. i don't always donate but i also don't always walk past with eyes glued pretending like the homeless is the blacksheep of the family: disgarded.

and anyway, i gave it this time and afterwards, the guy said "oh thank you so much. god bless you." and that was so curiously interesting to me as i walked on. i thought to myself, does he really believe in god or is he just saying that because it's such a common thing to say in certain circumstances. i know if i were homeless and struggling, i'd really have to re-examine my belief in the existance of god. i know it'd be hard to convince me that god is just and such and running speed trials of my tollerance for wandering the streets and sleeping in uncertainty.

i was also wondering if donating would bring me good karma. i'd love to believe in karma, but i don't really. but i was thinking i should always donate a buck or two extra on days that i am hoping for some luck or a more pleasant outcome. last nite was great and i wonder how much the dollar donation helped.

posted by fillshe @ 10:31 AM