curbdrop out of grace

please just let it out

i have two things to say:

1. i was thinking today how i have this history of dating people who suffer from severe emotional problems. this is nothing new that other people haven't realized or that i haven't dicussed directly.

but the thing is, i was thinking how i am very particular in the style/genre of music, art, movies, etc that i enjoy, and that my filters that i've set based on such qualities may have caused myself to only be attracted to people with these types of issues.

and then i thought, maybe because i have such "high" standards for the girls i'm seriously interested in, much of it having to do with the girl/target being very intersting, that that factor causes me to end up with people with issues. because people without issues are typically boring. seriously. people who live normal lives without these major life-altering problems end up listening to top-40 music and believing in whatever mommy and daddy fed them. i don't know. it's just another theory.

i like more alternative girls, and i guess there's a reason why they are alternative... i mean something in mainstream america affected them at some point in their life to cause them to not want to be another clone.

by the way, the cd that i made jane in which she painted me that lovely picture is unbelievable, if i do say so myself (all egos aside, it really is pretty fucking good).

2. my second thought is that i went on an actual date today/tonite. if you know me at all, you will know i always claim that "i have never been on an actual date before. i mean i've had numerous girlfriends, but none of them started on a regular typical date."

so i went on a date and it went well.

so i guess my previous posting was wrong... the posting i wrote specifically for johnny's comment (you'll have to read my posting more often if you don't know what i'm talking about).

merry christmas and indagadadivida (sp?) baby

posted by fillshe @ 3:27 AM