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there was a conscious decision made on my part when i turned 19 to concentrate on guitar and not on working out. now i managed to be able to do both through the end of college. however since then, the working out part has not been working out.

i am typing this taking breaks to do some sit ups. after all, i have to lose some of the fat. it helps too that my friends are now calling me fatty phil.

also they are just teasing. and i'm not taking it seriously, although i would ideally like to get into "better" shape, whatever that means.

the problem with working out though is it really consumes so much time. it does. it's not that i don't have time to kill. i could probably devote an hour most days to working out. but i like doing other things, such as sitting with good company doing absolutely diddily poo. but i think for most men, including myself to some extent, it is safe to say that the reason behind wanting to work out on a regular basis is to look good for women. now once you have a woman, that's when things generally start going down hill and the workouts cease.

now i have no such woman, but i can just anticipate not devoting any time anymore should i be so lucky to get another. it's not that i don't want to maintain my bod for my woman. it's just that rather then spending an hour working out each day, i'd rather spend an hour having sex each day. or nite, i'm not really picky.

so i guess i'm just keeping it real yo.

some people have told me in the past that they are jealous of my ability to play guitar. i ask them why. they always respond that they are sure the ability to play guitar helps guys get chicks.

WHERE DID YOU LEARN SUCH A LIE?

err wrong. playing the guitar has never helped me. i have met some girls in the past various years. some of them told me they play guitar as well when i mention i play. they have all lied. they don't play. they know the g-c-d chord progression and that's it. or they have a guitar and do not play. either way, they are lying when they say they play. and even these girls don't care THAT much that i can play. they much rather me be hot. or i guess if i'm in a good-spirited, highly confident mood (which i'm not at this particular moment), they would much rather me be hotter.

don't get me wrong. being able to play the guitar has definitely helped some guys get girls. for instance, bon jovi sucks big time. but he can play and can sing and ends up getting sucked, big time.

or john mayer. girls love john mayer. to tell you the truth, his music sucks (okay it is bearable). but either way, he's a great guitarist. and girls love him.

anyway so the lesson is: ability to play guitar helps if you're a rich good looking rock star. otherwise, it gets you nothing except fat because you traded in your muscles for calaces on the tips of your fingers, which by the way, is not such the turn on.

also, the kind of music i end up writing isn't typically a love song of any sort. they are mostly depressing glimpses into the various tragedies and failures of my existance.

i did try and write some love songs before. but the truth of the matter is, they were all inspired and written for girls that no longer matter. that statement isn't exactly true, just mostly true.

i gave some girls some poetry i had written for them before. they liked it. but the poetry never helped the relationship in any way. i think the girl(s) would have preferred a nice bottle of wine or a purse.

but i will continue to play as it is the constant love that i've had over the years.

and maybe i am wrong and will find some girl who is blown away by the fact that i am a guitarist. and maybe everything else will click. who knows. stranger things have happened to me recently.

has anyone else noticed these postings are really starting to get longer and longer?

posted by fillshe @ 12:43 AM